The End of 2012 and The Beginning of 2013

Its been a rough couple of months. I’ve made some difficult decisions, supported friends as they go through difficult times, and they’ve supported me. I’m learning that life isn’t about perfection, but the time you spend with people.

I spent so much time with one particular person, and yes, you know who you are, that to have that person gone has broken something inside me. I’ve crumbled, I’ve cried, I’ve said things and thought about doing things that quite frankly are below me and unbecoming. So I’m taking a stand for myself.

I’m seeking help to get through it and move past it. I’m slowly putting myself back together. I miss you, and it hurts like nothing I’ve ever felt before, but I have to keep going. I did what I did because, in all honesty, I couldn’t take anymore of the mind games, the selfishness, the control issues.

I’ve been asked if I’m happier since I walked away. The honest answer? I can’t be sure. Free, certainly. I’ve gained quite a bit of myself back in this short time. I’ve realized that everything I’ve done in my short 21 years does in fact mean something. I’m terrified that I’ll end up alone, but I think I’d rather end up alone and still free than with someone who has to control every aspect of my life.

So this is me, taking my life back and putting myself together again. In 2012, I did an internship. I graduated from college. I got a job in my field close to home in a failing economy. All of that, before my 21st birthday.

So in 2013, its time to find myself again. Its my time to shine and fly. I’m finally going to start some projects I’ve only dreamt of since childhood. I’ll travel more, I’ll meet new people while getting closer to the people I have, and I’m done with gilded cages. The first few days of the new year have been an emotional roller coaster, but I can see things turning around, getting better, and I plan on going straight to the top.

The best way to get me to do something is to tell me I can’t, because I’m too stubborn to let you be right. I have to prove you wrong. That piece of me was never lost. And that piece is the key to pulling the rest of me back together.

Best Interview Ever!

I know it’s been a while, but I promise to try and stay regular! I had my first job interview this week at WRGC radio station in Sylva, NC. I’m excited, because it really looks like they need my skills and all the help they can get. It’ll be good to get back on the air.

I guess its strange to some people, but being on the radio in the studio, just you and the mic and the music is a very freeing experience. You can’t help but be who you are, and the listeners eat it up! The best radio personalities are true to themselves, and that is the beauty of radio.

At one point, I’d forgotten why I went into radio in the first place. That interview, not even getting in the studio myself, just seeing it, reminded me of the freedom of the air waves. I’m beginning to think that maybe I was born for radio. I’ve been listening my whole life, and creating part of it for about half my life. Feels so strange to say that.

At the same time, I’m working my applications to graduate school. I plan on pursuing a degree of MA in Creative Writing. I’m currently in the middle of a massive edit/expansion to a piece I originally wrote four years ago: The Black Castle. My dream school for this is UNC-Charlotte so wish me luck!

I leave you with this, the latest piece from my photography: Image

This piece is exclusively mine, taken the morning of July 19, 2012 at Clingman’s Dome in Tennessee.

Finals Update

The end of finals week is very near. I feel great about my grades thus far, and am mentally preparing to walk across that stage Saturday morning. The same class that had me start this blog had me write a research paper as a final exam on any area of social media. I decided to write about Native Americans and Social Media. Here are my findings: Native Americans and Social Media. I hope you learn something.

Final Semester? Graduation? So soon!?

Sorry it’s been a while, but I’ve been very busy. So here are some updates:

This is my last week interning with Clear Channel Asheville. I learned a lot, made great connections, and even managed to leave with an audition reel. I’ve also freshened up my skills in XHTML and CSS coding within Adobe Dreamweaver.

My photography skills have increased dramatically this semester, photos to appear soon! My lighting techniques still need work, but I am ten times better than I was in January.

My acting final seems to be going well, despite a battle with two GI viruses back to back. Present preliminary to professor tomorrow, he sees it again the day of finals. Which are next week! I can’t believe this semester has literally flown by!

Monday, I take the GRE, which I only started studying for yesterday! Many thanks to Olivia Bellamy for giving me her prep book!

My other two classes are going well, and Wind Song will finish strong with a final episode of season one on Sunday, May 6. Hopefully this fall, it will return for season two with Stefani at it’s head and a new co-host by her side.

Acting: A Beginning Journey

I am currently working on my Neutral Scene assignment for my Acting I class. My partner and I have created our own set of given circumstances. One of my more brilliant ideas to help get us started was for us to write a character bio. Instead of A and B I thought we needed names. Of course we had to decide on setting and relationship etc, but for a creative mind like me, the details are crucial. So, below is my character bio. I am no longer portraying bland B, but the cruel, popular, and selfish Daphne Castle. Pretty cool, huh?

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Daphne Castle

By: Kaitlin Blaylock

Age: 22                                                                                                Sign: Cancer

Her entire current objective: get A to talk to her=> take her back=> restore her ego=>affirm the world revolves around her.

Became the “it” girl in Middle School after puberty. Dated every star jock. Only dumped once by “A” in the middle of senior year. Obsessed with fashion and appearances at every level.

Daphne was raised to be a “trophy,” a model, only meant to be seen. She is an only child. She vacationed in Europe with her father to visit his family and contemporaries.

Clothing is strictly designer label. Had her first coffee at age 15 in Milan. Blackmailed her principal in high school to graduate. Never taken anything seriously aside from her.

After high school, takes a part time job with her mother’s firm filing paperwork. Job was taken only to get to know the celeb clientele. Never considered college, no desire to work or educate her. Expectation of self-entitlement is all encompassing.

Daphne felt pressure to keep A until she was tired of him. She felt him growing distant, and reacted by clinging. Did not understand why he insisted on spending time outside of her and sports with his family, friends, and doing homework. The actual breakup was private, and she passed it off to her clique as her own boredom.

She doesn’t have actual friends, only superficial entourage. No confidante’s, no sincerity in her life. They shop, gossip, and wreak havoc. She knows their secrets but no one knows her secrets. Her desire for attention leaves no room for ideals such as monogamy, family, or empathy.

She is a chameleon, an actress, with miniscule ability for empathy. She was never taught how to actually care about other people outside of what they can do for her.

Mother is a lawyer on the cutting edge of fashion and precedent with zero time for her daughter. American, modeled in high school, exclusive celebrity clientele, high rate of success in court.

Father is a neuroscientist on the brink of curing multiple sclerosis. British, MENSA, several awards and accreditations for his medical discoveries, arrogant, direct, cold.

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I feel like I could take the neutral script and this character and write a novel on Daphne! I may do just that if time allows. Would you be interested in reading that story?

 

Neutral Scenes

My acting I class is starting on neutral scene study. I’m partnered with a guy who’s schedule is almost as complex as mine. For those theater newbies out there, a neutral scene is barebone dialogue without given circumstances of any kind. No setting, no reference, no character bio. All circumstances are created by the actor(s).

We’ve decided to make our scene between two people formerly romantically involved, and currently strained. His character is a college athlete, the relationship ended in high school, and my character show’s up on his turf. The assignment for class is to rehearse, we have to show the prof/class the scene on Tuesday, and work on it for the next week and a half. Then we show it again for a grade.

Wish us luck!

The Intern? I’m so much more than that!

As some of you may be aware, I’m interning at Clearchannel Asheville for my degree. I’m happy to help out. I know that the seemingly menial tasks given me take a load off the actual employees. I get it, I really do. But I’ve been there about a month, and other than my direct supervisor Aaron D’Innocenzi, almost no one is remembering my name. Or so it feels.

I am getting a full immersion work experience and learning “soft skills” necessary in a work environment. A lot of the people there curse worse than sailors, and I think it’s because radio personalities have to watch every word out of their mouths when that mic is on, so they don’t when they’re off air. I’m slowly getting used to this, but I personally do not curse often, or even on occasion, and it still tends to offend me. As of yet, I’ve only been hearing it in group conversations where I just happen to be doing my own work, minding my own business, thus I feel like I have no right to ask them to tone it down. If ever there comes a time when cursing is directed at me in a conversation, I feel like I then have the right to it. Friday, the company did a remote at Carolina Furniture Concepts to help the business gain, well, business. The topic of cursing briefly came up with Eddie Foxx, Aaron D’Innocenzi, and others in which I made my case for an opinion of distaste toward most topics/terms unsavory. My career counselor at my university said that I’m learning valuable skills that could not be taught in navigating the personalities and politics of a work environment. How do you think I’m handling it?

Caretaking

Wind Song’s Last Topic

Stefani and I talked about the importance of caretaking in almost every aspect of our modern lives. Native traditions across the country find it important to care for the environment, the animals, yourself, your village, and your family. So we challenged you, the listener, to do something to better someone’s life in some way.

What I’ve Done

I started my internship with clearchannel radio this week. I’m not sure what I expected, but organizing freebies from previous remotes was not it. Neither, really, was adding concerts to the site calendars. But I did it, and it actually did make a difference to the actually employed. Staying organized and reaching the audience was important.

Why does it Matter?

If we expect people to help us, we have to help others. Volunteering, interning, talking, listening. Being there. It makes a massive difference to the lives we interact with. So I once again charge you to do what you can to better a life.

Intro

Wind Song Talk Show is my project.

Wind Song episodes will be appearing here very soon. The show started in October 2011 and is still going strong. We discuss Native American (read indigenous) cultures and how they interact with the modern American culture. Issues such as politics, sovereignty, worldviews, and traditions. Basically, it’s two best friends discussing anything and everything Native.

It is our hope that we can educate and inform the masses that 1) Native groups still exist 2) not every Native culture is the same and 3) clear up the common misconceptions about and forced up on all Native Americans as a singular minority.

The radio show is hosted at Western Carolina University’s radio station WWCU-FM Power 90.5 (read ninety dot five). In the Mountains region of North Carolina, tune in to FM station 90.5.